Hello, I'm Allen, and I'm that dorky looking guy on the right.
What is the purpose of this website? Why am I wasting my time making a website from scratch, when
there are hundreds of free website templates out there? Surely that will make this website look
a lot more pleasing, and also save myself a lot of time.
Well, the thing is, I've got plenty of time. I was in a relationship with Amber Chen, and everything
was going so well. We had our ups and downs for the past two years, but we stuck together and worked
things out. However, I decided to break up with her on 8/23/2012. We had different goals in life,
different views on marriage and family. I do not see how we will ever agree on those differences.
As much as I love her, I do not think I can give her the life she wanted. We had no future together.
I am completely devastated by this break up, even though I was the one who called it. I know that
I will never find a girl who loves me so much. I always wanted to find someone who can have
unconditional love for me, and I believe I found her in Amber. Yet, due to our differences, I
thought it is best for us to part ways. I can't stop wasting her time on something I cannot
give her.
I miss the days when we were kids, and we could be with who ever we wanted, as long as we liked
each other. As I grew older, however, I realize that love is just not enough. There are so many
other factors in a relationship to make it last. Unfortunately, I'm not ready financially nor
mentally to start a family.
So, back to the point: what is the purpose of this website? After the break up, I often just
sit, do nothing, and think of the "what if's" with Amber. What if I can change, what if she can
change, what if we just wing it, and start a family and see how that goes. So many what if's.
After hours of just sitting on the couch thinking of all the possible scenarios, I wanted to do
something to distract myself from Amber. I wanted to learn html and make my own website, but as
I begun the online tutorials, all I could think about was Amber. Therefore, I decided to make a
website about Amber, at the same time practice some html. I will try to document places that
Amber and I had visited. I will also write blog entries. The blog entries will be words that I
wish to say to her, but I shouldn't. I'd like to think that she's also trying to forget about me,
and it's in our best interest for me to not talk to her.
Let's see how far I can go with this....